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Monday, March 2, 2015

Suicide sucks

I am going to cry.
tonight.
tomorrow night.
probably for about a month.
Everytime I think about how alone you must have felt.
Everytime I wonder what I could have said, have done, have been.
Everytime I see you.
Yeah, you failed.
You thought I would confirm your fears, and not believe.
I am so fucking mad at you right now.
I was here,
hell, we tried,
you bastard.
Reach out.
We love you.
You make this life better.
I love you.
I am glad you failed
I need you.
I love you
forever.
And when you get better,
I will fucking punch you.
Because the life without you
Doesn't bear thinking about.
You stupid fucking bastard.

6 comments:

  1. Oh my gosh Jamie... this is sad that someone would feel so alone they would attempt suicide... I am SO glad they failed... I hope they understand how important they are to you and others once they get passed this...

    How incredibly hard for you to have to deal with this too... wow... I can see why you are scared, sad and mad too... I understand...

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  2. WOW I was just talking to a friend of mine about his suicide attempt and how he failed

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  3. Very powerful stuff. I'm sorry for your pain.

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  4. Faith, hope, and love -
    the greatest of these is love:
    jump into faith...
    and you'll see with love.
    Doesn’t matter if you don’t believe.
    God believes in you.
    God bless you.

    LexNonSkripta.blogspot.com

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  5. Faith, hope, and love -
    the greatest of these is love:
    jump into faith...
    and you'll see with love.
    Doesn’t matter if you don’t believe.
    God believes in you.
    God bless you.

    LexNonSkripta.blogspot.com

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  6. The title says it all. Depression is a dark place. Sometimes you can't see what's right in front of you - like the ones who love you.

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