Not that different. I picked a stranger, for the same reasons. He knew he was going to be my first, and I think he got off on that, far more than on me. Now don't get me wrong. I had given load of hand jobs, a few blow jobs, and topped once. But I knew, in my heart, yeah, okay, we'll call it that, that I was meant to be a bottom. Can't explain, it is something you know.
Now I have one friend who is a bottom, and had full on penetrative sex with his "highschool sweetheart". He was so hurt he never had sex since. You know, full on penetrative sex. for that reason I chose very carefully, someone with experience. Someone who would treat me okay.
He was okay to look at. A very nice man... but looking back, he was 32 and okay with fucking a 15 year old, so maybe he was creepy. Actually no maybe. Okay, he was creepy.
Did it hurt? A bit, but not that much. He was very patient and really seemed to look at it like a teacher and me the student. Yeah, it was good. And no, I didn't have to pay him, lol.
Haha....well I wasn't gonna ask.
ReplyDeleteBut you're right about the age difference.
Yeah, looking back, anyone his age who would fuck a 15 yeqr old. I wouldn;t now. and I'm 20. So whqt does that say for a grown ass man. But then again, I let him, so *shrug* I gotta accept that responsibility.
ReplyDeleteYeah, that does sound really creepy... more like statutory rape. Glad you came out of it all right, though.
ReplyDeleteHe must have been good. Or you would have sued him and made sure he spent all his years in a state penitentiary where they all prefer "bottom".
ReplyDeleteWell, truth be told, he probably saved me from myself. I have no hard feelings for him, because it might have been someone who was creepy for variousl other reasons than liking young boys. And at the time legal age was 14 here, so there was nothing illegal about it. Just looking back I was like, seriously, guy, what were you thinking?
ReplyDeleteglad you're not messed up from it ... and glad you're moving on to better things ... i won't say bigger and better, because i just don't know :)
ReplyDeletelittle lolita you were
ReplyDeleteWell without the tragedy that followed. LOL!
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